The artist in me....

Morning mist.....

21 May 2012 22:32:00

and already flying swallows.......I guess they start sailing through the air with the first light. Really motivated. Speaking about motivation. How is your commitment to perfom today? Mine? Good. And thanks to my husband important things are possible to take part in. So let's see what this day will bring, what adventures 'piratess-is-discovring', which treasures she will find in the day.
A challenge for your piratess/pirate? Mmmhhh......'piratess-is-tickling-you-to-find-your-own-treasure'.
How 'treasure' is defined? Something that touches your heart and soul deep inside. It could be a good song in the radio, it could be a piece of cake, it could be a good book you read. It could be a contact you have today. Little things, medium things, big things, huge things or happenings. Whatever makes your inside vibrate with joy or at least makes you magically smile, out of the blue - sudden - gives you a 'warm-comfi-feeling-inside' ;)

I will be back.....until then, enjoy your day, remember your smile account, your heart, soul and your pirate/piratess.....smiles, Anke :) Ps: huge smile in my face! Seeing something, regained freedom, Soul flying on four wheels, enjoy! Huge smile from me :)

Reposting from the 6th May 2012:

'Following, developing, connections, support.....

And it does not matter if it's your husband/wife/girl-friend/boy-friend or a normal friend or family members. In all your willingness to connect to other human beings, all those ways you are following them, support them, are with them in their development, there is love in. Some form of love. Love was for me a very very 'tight-definited' notion. After this last years developement I know love can't be 'narrowed-definited', at all. Love has so many ways. Ways they make you speechless, that it is possible. And love finds ways. Fighting against does not work, you destroy yourself. The only way to live with it, in an integrated 'making-you-feel-good-way', is to accept its many beautiful ways. Even this accpetance it not easy but so worth to 're-define' for yourself what love really is, and let go of the 'self-created' or 'forced-on-you-limits-by-society'. To reconsider what love means for you. And it is nothing to be ashamed of, to be afraid of. I know the pressure from society is huge, society defines love very very tight, it does not leave room for a free sharing of those warm vibes around you. And I don't mean the physical attraction.

So, todays tickle from me, is for you, to 're-value' love for yourself. What does love mean to you?'

Hi there. I am back from another class. Vision is getting clearer. Now it's time to let it go for today and let it simmer some more and be open to what else I will learn.

So, how was your day so far? Smile account? Heart beating in joy? Soul flying? Pirate/piratess?

Yep....I am little phewwwww.....again....off to recharge, maybe until later, LOL....told you 'putting-your-business-on-solid-grounds' is not eating sugar.....it's a mix between all, sweet, salty, sour, sour-sweet until you find a good together and it has a pleasant combination of all. LOL.....'exercising-the-humor-muscle' to shake off 'tension' from thinking on all involved. LOL EY!
'piratess-said-it-is-necesary' than I better listen......goofy me.

Other than that, beautiful weather outside.....driving with open windows and loud music on the Autobahn alias highway was FUN....LOL......'wild-piratess-enjoying-freedom' EY! How about your freedom? Did you enjoy it today as well? Those little freedoms you have.....or you regain after a challenge and made it.....ENJOY! ENJOY! ENJOY!

'Spread-your-wings-and-let-those-sparkles-in-your-eyes-jump-in-joy'!
PS: Started to read 'Aleph' from Paulo Coelho....yes I am kind of 'eating' books in the last days, LOL...well I am not watching TV...that says it all...LOL :)

PS from the evening: PUH....Zumba was 'exhausting' today...hot air in the gym....lol....I don't want to imagine how the summer is going to be....oh my!

How was your day? Did you find any treasure in your day? Did you enjoy them? I sure hope so.

So, off to recharge....those impulse I got today are very very very good but I can tell.....my 'fast-thinking-brain' needs some slow down time. Before it has to produce those 'unvolutnary-colorful-skid-marks' again, LOL :)))))

Enjoy your evening, smiles and some stars for you. EY!

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YAWN.....yawn....ups....sorry....ey ey ey ey EY!

20 May 2012 22:48:00

'Every impulse is an initial spark'saying the headline in this collage from 2010.
So, 'piratess-is-challenging-you-today' dear blog readers to use every impulse which touches your heart and your soul to enjoy. Become aware of them. Live them. Smile with them. Recharge your 'inside-sparkling-bubbling-happy-well' with them, fill this spot with it and live everything else as well or whatever your todays challenges will be.
So, some tickles for the morning. I will be back later or sooner....busy morning. As usually, LOL.
Yawn....no...I did not sleep good....oh well. Coffee helped to rise and shine this morning, even I think for shine I need some good music this morning, LOL....anyway, have a great start into your day!
Smiles your way, Anke :)
'piratess-has-sparkling-eyes-ready-to-conquer-her-impulses-today' EY!
HOWDY! I am BACK from class......todays topic 'cash method of accounting'. And actually working with numbers. YEP. Gearing up on the business side. Starting small but learning the basics is important. Finally getting it all the way! And yes I took my calculator, LOL.....my brain is not made to focus good on numbers and calculate...lol....so thankfull for this invention 'calculator' , LOL.....;)

So, how was your day so far? Smile account? Heart beating in joy? Soul? Piratess/pirate? OH YES...how is this challenge going? I sure hope 'enjoying-a-lot-today'.

Okay, that is all for now. I am sure I will be back....first some soul flying time, sorting thoughts....until later. EY!
:))))

PS from late afternoon: I discovered the first 'corn-flower'! I don't know if this is the right translation BUT that's what the dictionary said....anyway.....getting things going. Putting myself in gear to get 'important-matters-taken-care-of' concerning my 'further-founding'. I can tell you...this 'amount-of-things-you-have-to-be-aware-off' is HUGE and can fast get you in panic. BUT I am aware of that as well and try to 'self-manage' myself. So far so good. Determined, even you never know if it works out. BUT this is where my heart is leading me too. Possible potential, living out loud. Yes, I am brave even I am little 'scared' and yes I am taking a certain amount of risk.....but it's kind of small compared to other 'founding-ideas'. So, who is with me on my journey? Because I am sure I need some sort of 'cheer-up-support' once in awhile.....or just being with me here, is already a support, which I appreciate from deep inside my heart and soul.

Okay...'encouraging-myself-deep-breath' and see whatelse I can 'figure-out-today'......:)

PPS: Okay, vision is getting clearer and clearer. Now I kind of know which way I want to go, with all my ideas in my head. So better putting it down on paper before something else is getting in between again, LOL...some sort of another idea and my 'clearer-vision' is going to be 'questioned-again' LOL.....yes founding can be exciting......no risk NO FUN. :) Plus no trying - no expierence and there are always ways to adjust, be flexible, rearranging. That's what I learned already. Sounds like I try to convince myself? LOL...maybe......'cheering-myself-on'.....that's what pilgriming is causing as well. This trust in yourself and in life. Like I wrote before this is kind of testing my 'new-learned-ways' to live life.....so challenge accepted!

'piratess-agrees-and-soul-as-well-and-heart-is-just-smiling-in-this-amazing-calmness' EY!

SO, how is your challenge doing? Pirate/piratess had some fun today?

PS from the evening: AAAAAHHHHHHHHH - 'major-scream-release'....'making-my-inner-borders-explode-again'.......I CAN DO THIS! Yes choosing this 'energy-inside-to-be-fillling-the-well', not 'getting-blocked-by-worries-or-panic'.....LOL..I am okay, really. I just made a choice again. Remember sometimes you have to make one and it was time to do that.
How is your 'energy' doing? 'Free-flowing' or 'stuck-somewhere'? Need some tickle to get it loose again?

Well, 'piratess-is-poking-you-with-a-mischievious-grin-in-her-face' EY! Or do you want to hear this again:

Max Raabe - Mein kleiner gruener Kaktus -> Yes I am 'poking-you'...with my 'cactus-tickle-tender-poking-being-me'....did you smile? Did it feel good inside? Well, com'on! There is still more. How about this 'bursting-into-a-loud-laughing' RIGHT NOW! Go for it! Imagine 'piratess-dancing-her-pirate-dance-to-that-music' LOL...that even made me laugh out loud!!! Haahahaaaahhhaaaa :)))) Goofy me in the evening. Smiles :)))

Ps: Do you have a 'soul-island' in your life? Don't know what that is. Somewhere, something, somebody, where your soul feels 'protected', feels comfi, feels safe. It just makes you feel good, filling you just like that, with a 'positive-reinvigorating-energy'.
Now you know, and ? Do you have something like that in your life? Yes, you guessed right, this 'simmer-release-out-of-blue-weird-wired-creative-brain'.

Because I could use one like that right now......LOL....instead some 'music-treatment-with-headphones' and watching swallows. Some sort of 'island' ;)

How to train a dragon - New tail - because my life gets kind of a 'new-tail-to-fly' as well. EY! Or should I say, a new 'sail' for going with the waves of life. 'Floating-even-better'.

A big step done
- putting it down -
some sort of action plansigh...and another sigh. Just because.

How to train a dragon - Forbidden friendship

And another just because.
LOL :)))

PPS from after a couple songs: 'relieved-getting-more-and-more-relaxed' sigh.....
amazing what music is able to do with you ;)

Yes - spreading my wings again and feeling the wind without any fear.
EY!
LOL...no I do not have a choice,
watching the swallows sail through the air in pure bliss,
is just too contagious.

LOL....goofy me. :)
'Thanks-to-my-dear-humor'
:))))

Drachenzaehmen leicht gemacht - Wo ist Hiccup?

Sense of life....

20 May 2012 01:14:00

Being in the element ...of creating with beauty something beautiful = my thread of life.

Good morning...I hope you had a great weekend so far. I can not complain, so far it was. Even I am a little out of whack this morning....lol....with my sleeping recovery. Going out with my Mom was fun last night. We danced a lot and enjoyed the music.

So, new day - new adventures.

First of all, this book 'Seelengevoegelt- Veit Lindau' is really really good and it puts it to the point, this expierence I made, this 'rebelling-process-inside' and it also says, that it's not quite easy when you are 'awake' in your normal surrounding, because nobody really gets what you went through. It sounds strange to those around you. And that is sometimes kind of 'painful' not having somebody around to share this 'experience'.

I SO AGREE. SIGH.

Some might ask, well, if it's painful why not go the way back? Well you can't, and you really don't want to! I do not want to go back to 'sleep' in my life again. I want to enjoy my life, I want to see the beauty, the little beauty in my everyday, I want to feel this joy arising from inside, I want to live out my full possible potential. I want to follow the thread of my life. I want to share beauty, I want to create beauty, I want to expierence lifes wonders, I want to fight for the light, I want to appreciate those 'signs' on my way. It's this pure joy to live - free (as free I can live in moments of my life) - responsible - loving - giving - sharing - centered - being me.

And who knows, maybe someday I will find another 'warrior-of-light-aware-awaken-rebell' close by, who understands what I am talking about here. Until then, my blog is my space to live it out loud. Because I have the braveness to live it out loud here, it's some sort of calling. You can laugh about it, but it really is for me. To share this amazing expierence to go through life aware.
And I can totally understand that not everybody is able to live it out loud, maybe not yet. That they are living it undercover, in their soul and heart, longing. I sure hope they find in their normal lifes some space to 'live-it-out-loud' and use it as a 'recharge-refill-of-their-inner-well', where those sparkles those sprinkles, this amazing fulling happiness is coming from. To give their lifes a full meaning.

Sending special smiles with the wind.....for you! And thank you 'life' for giving me this amazing chance to 'rebell-against-my-own-numbness', I used to live in! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.....and my expression of joy here and my creating of Collage is my 'visiable-made' graditude towards the miracles of life, towards those who played an important role in this whole process and still do.

OH my, another passionate post, LOL.....which I enjoyed with all my being to create.

'mischievious-piratess-smile', Anke :)

PS: How are your wings doing? Do they need a lift? Yes? Here you go....sending a soft gust to lift you carefully until you can fly alone again. NEVER GIVE UP! :)

http://www.lifetrust.info/news/was-kinder-uber-die-liebe-sagen.html

Ps: So whoever is 'living-this-rebell-life' undercover, and reading here. Get whatever you can get out of here, for inspiration on your own individual 'rebell-path'. And maybe someday you will be able to live it out in real and maybe some day you will 'life-cross-with-another-rebell-warrior-of-light' EY!

PS from around lunch: Thunderstorm clouds building up......humid air.....looks like some 'nature-power-release' later on....so, wherever you are outside....be careful when it hits ;)

PPS : I have to think about getting 'sunglasses' in my 'eye-off-normal-adjustment'...so I can go 'undercover' biking, LOL...because with sunglasses and helmet, people don't recognize you.....;)
So, whoever reads here and crossed my path, but I did not recognize....no offense...you probably were wearing sunglasses and I did not know who you really are ;) -> some joking around lunch.

Lauras Stern und der geheimnisvolle Drache Nian
Ps from the afternoon: So how is your day? Good? That is good. How is your smile account doing? Your heart beating in joy? Your soul flying? Are your pirate/piratess on adventure? Any 'heart-warming' surprises?

I know those questions, tickling you.....;)

I am off to the hammock...decided for 'hanging-through', too many bikers on the way today anyway. And yes this book is coming..BUT first some coffee and CAKE.....mmmhhh...want a virtual piece? Here you go! 'Served-for-you'. EY !

Until later...maybe...who knows....probably....we will see.....;)

HA! Back....I just wanted do add: AND YOU HAVE every right to give yourself/enjoy this 'filling-your-well-till-the-overflowing-max' - don't let this 'bad conscience', those 'jugdging-thinking-ways' trying to destroy this fullfilling way to live your life! You are not betraying anybody, except for yourself by 'holding-yourself-back' to 'fill-this-well-and-to-throw-this-amazing-energy-out'. Don't cage your amazing, tender, wonderful, beautiful, inspiring soul any longer. Let it fly! Feel the wind, feel those possible potentials. Touch the rainbow inside of yourself! GO FOR IT! :))))

Ps from the evening:

Here is some more reposting from 25th April 2012, a part of my 'offline-post', I wanted to share again, since it fits for today:

'So, todays topic, is living the questions. Sounds 'un-do-able' ? That's what I first thought too. BUT it's possible, now I know. A truth revealed itself over a while and it astonishes me how that actually works.......by living everything else, enjoy whatever crosses your way, goes along, joins in your path and in between you might get insights of something, you were trying to find an answer with so much effort and no outcome. This leads me to my conclusion, that the answers for your own truth in life can only reveal to you, just like that. On their own terms. In my case, not in the 'Anke-wants-to-know-now!-TERMS'.....LOL....yes I can laugh about myself. I know I have a curious piratess inside of myself and sometimes it's quite unpatient, LOL...but she learned already BIG TIME and for some reason, life shows her how it works. Floating with the waves ;). So either, at some time you get a glimpse how it works and just live everything else or you repress the questions. Repressing did not work, believe me....it's just eating at you, you have to hold it down with so much energy that eventually you surrender to it and just let things happen on their own terms. At least that's how the soul and heart work together. They keep tickling you from inside. So either you are open to their 'tickling' or you shut them all the way down. And there comes in, this courage, in times of confusion, for some reason you become brave, you get a glimpse of what is still possible, of what life has to actually offer when you are ready to learn, to see the beauty, when you finally follow your heart!'

PS: I was just wondering..yes wondering....how it really is when you cross with somebody who made the same expierence all the way, who is a rebell, who is a 'warrior-of-light' and lives it out loud.
Do you just know without words - this invisiable connecting - mirror neuroning? Smile...actually a mischievious smile....well...a wish for the wind....maybe some day I will experience this. Since some things can't be put in words or you also can call it a 'brain-blockade' it's probably an adventure. Powerful alive energy facing powerful alive energy......would it result into an explosion? And what kind of explosion? In a 'freeing-together-laughing-that-comes-from-the-soul' or in 'pushing-away-fight-dance-activity' or just something I never can think of...LOL.....yep, greetings from 'weird-wired-crazy-creative-brain' surprising out of the blue. LOL.....when I ever expierence it, I might will share, maybe...or maybe not.
BEEP BLINK BEEP BLINK...oh my:
Sometimes you just need time to realize what certain moments actually were in your life. EY! I have a certain 'sensing'....I might had those expierences of explosions before. LOL....a 'freeing-from-soul-coming-laughing'. So, nothing to fear...even it can be a little scary this 'energy-cross-over'. Souls can be powerful when provoked....'kindhearted-smile'... LOL....the opposites have been lived already. And both parties survived! 'piratess-is-tickling-your-pirate-inside' in a 'good-friendly-way'. EY!

PS: Please be easy with me....sorry for all those typing mistakes, not to speak of missing words.LOL :)

BOOK DONE. Content sigh. And a smile on top. :)))))

Good night, some stars for you:

Bing bling bing bing bling......*********************

19 May 2012 15:52:00

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH- 'mischievious-piratess-scream'......

19 May 2012 00:26:00

.....Yes yes yes yes yes yes........that was going on in my head this morning. Reading in bed. This book I started yesterday. OH MY. This puts it, into words, what I expierenced last year. So, I only could lay there and my mouth formed a mix from a switching 'smile-grin-mischievious-broader-giggle-exploding-inside-smile'! WOW. Yes I am a rebell, yes I am a warriror of light, yes I do love life and yes I do love this hidden beauty! Nothing else to say, except for sitting here, with a huge smile on my face, soul is content of reading what fullfills her and is ready to conquer the day, full with adventures to come, whatever comes comes. So once again I only can encourage you to find your inner pirate/piratess! Go for it! 'Let-boundaries-explode' you can do it!!!!! Life is so much more than, holding back your 'fire-energy-aliveness' GO FOR IT! Com'on with me.....be brave....let's adventure the world, let's explore lifes miracles!

And dear ISC.....okay......are you a rebell deep inside as well? Are you a warrior of light? Do you know what I am talking about? Yes, I am curious and there are always more questions raising inside, still. LOL. BUT like I wrote before, maybe I will find the answer or maybe not. In between I live everything else and enjoy, love, nourish my soul with whatever it needs, wherever my heart leads me too. EY!

Yes a passionate post for a weekend start. Full of power and piratess energy! EY! 'piratess-is-having-a-proud-adventurous-smile-on-her-face'.......yes and some goofing around already too.....I will be back...now breakfast....no this posting could not wait, that 'sparkling-bubbling-want-to-share-inside-this-morning'.

Smiles for you, Anke :)

Ps: If nothing comes in between I am going out with my mum tonight.....but the day is still long...and I know from experience...this making plans is sometimes tricky......;)

PS from around lunch: EEEHHHHAAAAaaaaa......I 'geared-up'....taking a ride some time soon this weekend. 'piratess-smile-in-my-face' EY!
Ps from after 'flying-time': OH MY.... another oh my, LOL...oh my this ride was amazing! So light and easy....pleased smile on my face. Yes, I am in love with the wind, I am in love with the speed (enjoy speed today). And yes I am in some sort of love with the bugs, LOL....but better keep your mouth closed, otherwise it will be 'meat-y' ;)'Mischievious-piratess-smile' AND you know what! I have an appropriate bag as well. One for a piratess. Those from my area seeing it, know what I mean, EY! 'Flag is with me' not just literally but really. Goofy me.
How is your saturday so far? I sure hope very good. I have some 'good-vibes' to share in case you need some.

Here you go, CATCH!!!!Got it? Thumbs up!
Until later, EY!

PS from the evening:

Warm spring rain....the kids had fun...making footprints. I enjoyed the smell and the noise....:)
So, a good busy day so far. Looking forward for some more adventure to come. I wish you a great evening. Write to you tomorrow!
Smiles, Anke :)
'piratess-took-a-break-some-pilgriming-today'. EY!
PS from the early morning: I had a fun time going out with my Mom....smile....off to bed, good night.